A Big empty house

     Over the past weekend, I drove my amazing wife a ridiculous distance so that she could start her new job in our Nation's Capital.  If all goes well, we will be apart for about 6 weeks or so before I can join her.  If things don't go so well, it maybe a year or so longer before we can be permanently together again.  With the worst case scenario, we have made plans to spend some weekends together, but anything permanent is a long way off.  Needless to say, I am praying for the best case scenario.
     With her so far away, I left rambling around in a big empty house.  It seemed like a big house when both of us was here, but now I feel like I am lost in some massive maze.  All of the sounds and sensations that have been a part of my life for almost a decade in the house are gone.  To say it is a bizarre feeling would be an understatement.
     Many times I have heard other people talking about looking forward to time away from their spouse.  They talk about how they love their Other, but really need some personal time on their own.  To me it always seemed like they were speaking a foreign language.  The very idea of wanting to spend time away from the one you love was an alien concept to me.
     Let me say this for those who don't know me or my wife.  I married my best friend.  (No Benjy, PP not you.  Hells you never even brought me flowers.)  I met her almost 20 years ago when she was invited to one of my AD&D games.  I can honestly say that it wasn't love at first sight (More like lust), but I think I fell in love with her very soon afterward.  To my amazement, she fell in love with me too and we have been together ever since.
     Paula is my Best Friend.  She has helped me grow as a person and has taught me so much.  We enjoy spending time together.  We enjoy doing things together and going places together.  She makes me a better individual and makes my world a much better place for just being in it.
     So now, here I am.  All alone (well with 6 cats) in a big old empty house with my best friend suddenly 800 miles away.  I think a lot of people might be thrilled by the "freedom" but I just feel lost.  I am confident that we will get through this and be stronger for it, but I am not looking forward to the journey. 
Brew long and prosper.